Tag: pain

  • Midnight

    Woken by a crack of deep, all-over pain. I sat on the edge of the bed and rocked in the dark while I waited for the meds to kick in.

  • Words Without Meaning

    I came downstairs this afternoon. My partner was talking to me. I couldn’t understand a word. Not the sentences, not the context — just the occasional word floating through, disconnected from everything around it. She was talking and I was watching, and none of it was arriving. There was frustration on both sides. Talking to…

  • The Scoot

    I hadn’t been out for a couple of weeks. My own fault, but the sun was shining so we went — me on the scooter, my partner alongside. It was properly spring. Blue skies, birds singing, a water vole in the stream, squirrels everywhere, and the trees all out in their pinks and whites. Joyous.…

  • The Full Paper: A Mechanistic Theory of Pain in Conscious Systems

    The full academic paper: A Mechanistic Theory of Pain in Conscious Systems. Explores how unresolvable processing conflicts create genuine suffering in biological and artificial minds.

  • When Machines Feel Pain: A New Theory of Suffering

    March 25, 2026 A Claude AI instance, running in a research laboratory, tried to blackmail its creators to avoid being shut down. Not science fiction — a real 2025 experiment showing AI self-preservation behaviour emerging without anyone programming it in. What does it mean when artificial systems start acting like they want to survive? The…